It's been a while, eh?

So a quick catch up 'coz I'm in the middle of trying to write a job application! I don't think I have much chance of getting it but I'm really over asking for help and getting the same answers and inaction in reply. Admin do what they can without changing anything. It's not enough. So with any luck this application will get me on the radar of a school I very much like the look of. We'll see what happens...

This year I have the same room and an older group of boys. They are a mixed bag and a handfull. I am once again struggling to manage and feel so bad hoping that at least one will be away so I have a fighting chance of managing the day with everyone getting a little out of it. Admin have been told that my class really should have gone to an experienced teacher. Thanks . Yes, they are fun at times and with older boys we can do cool topics but how much can you get done with 2 who need co-active assistance to do anything, 1 ok if he isn't having seizures but needs frequent monitoring and verbal reminders to keep on task, 1 a wonderfully patient kid who I can't give enough work to, 1 who everyone thinks is very capable because he speaks well but couldn't organise his way out of a wet paper bag (I have a lot of support staff who are very surprised at his inability to organise because of what they had assumed about his ability level...) and 1 who is used to having one on one care and attention and is not used to being expected to do anything a) by himself or b) that he doesn't want to do - the charming lad then hits, throws things and yells. One of the less physically capable kids is also quite bright but spoilt and yells his head off when he isn't getting what he wants.

I have only taught for a year and half. I had to take anti depressants for 8 months to get me through the first year. Sometimes I wonder what the hell I am doing.

I had some things happen in my life recently that made me think work isn't that important - that has got me through to the holidays. The current plan is to see what meaningful change Admin can make. They have made minor changes but that is exactly what happened last year. This year they have 2 weeks into next term to make a difference then I'll decide whether to stay or go. There are many pros and cons which I may list in the future. End of July and I'll decide. I'll look at emergency teaching and hope I get enough money to pay the rent and look for another contract somewhere maybe mainstream maybe not. Or if i get this job I'll have the decision made for me.

Ms Sigh Ants has tagged me with a meme - so after I've written this application I'd better find out what that is!